
I live in a world where I'm trying to be different while being afraid of just being the exact same as everyone else...
Ages since my last update. Stupid retard me.
I'm quite mad at myself actually. No. Scratch that. I'm can just understand why everyone would want to hate me. But do you know what is really driving me up the wall? When people have the audacity to make statements about MY head and what I am really feeling as if THEY know more about me than I do,.
Now that just makes me me very mad. The principle of it. They can just say, "Oh, you're lying. We didn't believe you the first million times because you were lying and you're still lying."
Excuse me? And when do you have the right to tell me about my emotions? Last time I checked, I could read my own mind, and no one else. Apparently not. Apparently I am LYING. Well. People are all too ready to believe one thing about you (true or not) and when you say "Actually, no, that's not true." they say you are lying. BUT when it's the opposite, like oh let's say you're OVER something and it's the truth, they tell you you're wrong! I mean.
And yes. I AM talking about you. This kind of thing actually makes me dislike people.
If peoplw were really your friends, you'd think they'd believe you when you tell them something. Apparently not. The funny thing is, even though I don't really care, and even when I drop it and jsut don't even bother trying anymore, some people still bang on about it.
Anyway.
I'm home sick. I am feeling somewhat better now, I had some Mi Wadi.
I wonder who modelled in Art instead of me. I can't run forever. One day I will have to sit in the middle of a room with everyone drawing me. At least I'll have Blackalicious. Even though he can only hold 7 songs if you put on a 9 minute long one. Normally it's around 12.
I am going to go. I'm finished my Mi Wadi. Need more.
Grace
2 Comments:
At 9:54 PM
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o well u had to do the modaling sometime at least i was at ur side ......well at least at ur back turned the other way ooh well i was there thats the point modaling as well but vicky was the only one drawing me the rest were just chating ha ha so it wasnt that bad ur end of the table must have been terible though everyone up there is so serios they actually look at the modal haha
At 11:21 PM
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oh god
at last ive found sum1 who UNDERSTANDS lol
I absouletly (tis 11.30, i cant spell beyond 9) hate it when people are like "NO! UR ACTUALLY A SAD LITTLE.... AND YOU THINK THAT... AND YOUR NOT LIKE THIS AT ALL AND..."
Grrr
like, feck off, I think I know my oown Mind, Body and Soul (JOSS STONE! WOOT!)
:|
Jossy <3
Down with Acrylic Paint, it ruins nailbeds...
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